The loneliness is driving him crazy.



I was stupid enough to try again, friends.  Yeah, I know, I should have known better.

I honestly don't know why I keep putting myself out there only to get kicked in the dirt again.

Could go on with who's fault it was and all that, but it wouldn't matter.  Either way, it's still a huge waste.  The sad thing is...I lost to a terminally ill guy.  Yeah, how can you fight for someone when you are up against that?  Ironically, this is the same guy who ran away from her a week or so ago because of something she told him that was in her past.  Hey, all is forgiven when it comes to having a disease that will kill you, right?

She kept wanting me to hate her, and I almost gave in.  I don't think being jilted is worth my hatred.  It may make her feel better that she broke my heart knowing thatI hate her but I am not going to give into it.  She may be a weak person when it comes to love and relationships but it is a weaker person who thinks that when you destroy a relationship that hating that person is going to solve anything.

I won't give in to it.  Life is too short to hate anyone.  If you give into it, you wind up in a worse place than just being sad that your heart was broken. 

Doesn't make it any easier, though.