Going to step back from the political for this one...

Honestly, I think that I've done enough politics, don't you?

What more can I add to the steady droning that is coming out of the news today?  Squat.  The sun rose, in places reason and/or rain or snow fell, babies were born and people passed away.

In short, the last few days have been largely normal all things considered, so let's get on with it, shall we?

To shake things up I figure taking things back to the reason this blog was born is a decent entry to jump the tracks with so, here we go.  

As I grow older the need for partnership in my life is becoming very desirable. By that you can gather that, in the relationship department, I am currently single in addition to being broke and jobless. To use the sports metaphor I am "on waivers", so to speak.

Regardless of the whys and wherefore of it I am in the "friend  zone", and quite frankly I deserve it the more I think about it.   Family issues, mainly on her side, are the factor that keeps us apart and it's not fair to consider is in any way or form "together" in the truest sense of the word.

I understand it.  I'm at peace with it,  but I don't have to like it.

As I get older, I find myself needing and wanting to be in a relationship.  I saw my parents together 34 years,  (until my dad passed) and though it wasn't a smooth road that they walked they had each other and at the end of the day, that's all they ever needed.

Thing is, when my folks were my age they were still married, had two kids and a house.  Myself, on the other hand, I'm pushing 50, unemployed, divorced, have a teenaged son and live with my mother.  All very serious detrimental social elements on appearances alone.

Until a number of those elements change it looks as if that's how I'll stay.  I am efforting to make that change but it is glacial in speed.  It's raising an impatience in me that I dislike to a huge degree.

I find myself longing for the days of stability.  The days of thrill.   The days where I was happy and safe in the knowledge that my female best friend was there for me and loved me.

It's been too long a time since I had that in life, and it hasn't happened that often to begin with.

Hope things change soon.